Argh. That’s the sound of immense frustration.
I’m in the middle of trying to effect change and I’m less than thrilled with the results thus far. I’m bothered by the process and annoyed that it won’t go faster.
Hi, I’m the HR Intern and I’m a nail biter.
I’ve been ignoring it roughly my whole life, not caring that my fingers look stubby and mangled, that I have no nails with which to do anything with and that I constantly cover most of my face with my hands while wearing a pained expression as I trt to bite that last hard-to-reach piece off. But when I successfully grew a nail after wearing a band-aid for 2 weeks to cover a cut, I realized that in order to curb all of these compulsions, I would have to stop. And so stop I will!
And now a week later, it’s obvious how difficult is it to stop something that’s incredibly entrenched in my daily routine.
In order to change, not only does there have to be awareness of an issue (I bite my nails), but there has to be a resolution to change (I have to stop biting my nails). And beyond that, there must be a recognition that it won’t be easy, that there will be resistance to that change, especially when something is tied to a personal style or organizational culture (I’ve caught myself sticking my hands in my mouth excessively over the past week and after telling a friend of mine to call me out when I do it in his presence, he had to literally bat my hand from my face in the 15 minutes we sat together – how’s that for self-restraint?).
Change is unbelievably difficult. But perseverance is what makes good things happen. Despite the fact that I want to turn around on this path I’ve wondered down and just go back to how it was (it’s like the chicken pox – I can’t think of anything else but biting my nails), I’ve got to make my way to the light at the end of the tunnel. When I’m done, I’ll know what it takes to not bite my nails – and I’ll be much happier because of it.
So if you see me biting my nails, help me out. Maybe together we can make this change a reality.